Aliens Have Invaded My Brain
The Aliens in my head are my own voices of right, wrong, and insanity trying to figure me, and possibly you out.
11/21/2012
The Wind
Hi..yeah Im still alive. Felt the need to write today!
This is kind of sappy, but Im playing around with some digital art. Its the loss of someone you love. I thought about it as it is Thanksgiving eve and for many, holidays can be painful. Might play around with the words some more cause I just wrote it in the past few minutes :) I will hate it in 2 hours.
I am in the wind,
In the rain, the laughter of a child,
The butterfly on the windowsill.
Beside you on the warm sunset
I have not left you
Look up,
I am in the stars
Shining light in the darkest places
Reminding you
I am still here.
When you smell my perfume
Or have a memory of me
Know it is I who is letting you know
I am ok
Open the ears of your soul and
You can hear me
Your mind and you can see me
I am in the wind….
~Almighty Heidi
7/30/2012
Shooting Stars
I turned my world around for you
And you for me
Just a fleeting moment of gravity
just like every shooting star that goes by
It shines and sparkles as she flies
Her path is not to end
But to keep passing
why
Eyes hurting to see the traces of light left behind
Until they are gone
And my universe
Darkens
Just as it had been before
2/29/2012
It Just Is
Hello fellow bloggers. Just a note to say the Almighty Heidi Lives. I look back on my blog from 2010 a dream I had for that new year..it had a lion in it that symbolized courage. I had no idea how much I would need that courage for following year..and year after that.
This past week I left my job, my security in these hard economic times. It was a leap of faith that had to be done. I had ate my humble pie for 2 years. I had to go back to waiting on tables and bartending to feed my family.
But my soul ached everyday to get out.
There was so much negative,
I could no longer see the positive around me any longer.
I longed to breathe.
I might have to eat some more humble pie
but at a new job it might just taste better.
Did I tell you I am going back to school full time with a heafty loan that I might not ever repay, but a 4.0 gpa?
I knew when it turned 2012 I would have a new job by my birthday.
Tommorrow is my birthday.
So this year, my year...
I choose not to live in darkenss of fear
but in the light of the unknown
I will always hunger for more
it is who I am
even though I still dont know who I am meant to be yet
but I know feel the drive twoards a purpose
every single day
Though I am sensitive, fragile of heart, and hurt easily
in reality I am tough, determined, and strong
I think I can,
and I have
or damn it
I will.
When my soul screams ENOUGH
then it is time
to move in another direction
because she has never steared me wrong
There is no failure
just a lesson
a stupid lesson that somehow
you needed to be reminded
of your own humanity
and to be sensitive to others
because they are only human too
get back up and keep moving
ther longer you stay down
the longer it takes to get back up
Dont be afraid of the dark
there are no monsters in the closet
that you have not already faced
Just turn on the damn light of your own soul
and know looking back
you will say
"I would not have changed a thing"
because it just is meant to be
It just is
Almighty Heidi
This past week I left my job, my security in these hard economic times. It was a leap of faith that had to be done. I had ate my humble pie for 2 years. I had to go back to waiting on tables and bartending to feed my family.
But my soul ached everyday to get out.
There was so much negative,
I could no longer see the positive around me any longer.
I longed to breathe.
I might have to eat some more humble pie
but at a new job it might just taste better.
Did I tell you I am going back to school full time with a heafty loan that I might not ever repay, but a 4.0 gpa?
I knew when it turned 2012 I would have a new job by my birthday.
Tommorrow is my birthday.
So this year, my year...
I choose not to live in darkenss of fear
but in the light of the unknown
I will always hunger for more
it is who I am
even though I still dont know who I am meant to be yet
but I know feel the drive twoards a purpose
every single day
Though I am sensitive, fragile of heart, and hurt easily
in reality I am tough, determined, and strong
I think I can,
and I have
or damn it
I will.
When my soul screams ENOUGH
then it is time
to move in another direction
because she has never steared me wrong
There is no failure
just a lesson
a stupid lesson that somehow
you needed to be reminded
of your own humanity
and to be sensitive to others
because they are only human too
get back up and keep moving
ther longer you stay down
the longer it takes to get back up
Dont be afraid of the dark
there are no monsters in the closet
that you have not already faced
Just turn on the damn light of your own soul
and know looking back
you will say
"I would not have changed a thing"
because it just is meant to be
It just is
Almighty Heidi
12/29/2011
Before The Sun Goes Down
I have been lost for awhile..not writing, but felt inspired today, by a song, or a poem..whatever you want it to be
Keeping your heart close to mine
Love changes everything
this mess
Im trying my best
praying to the angels
to break down your walls
forget about our feelings
Im climbing over them
Words can never show
what Im about to do
Keep your heart close
love changed everything
this mess
trying our best
Fists against the wall
breaking it all
climbing the brokeness
tired and bruised
reaching out for you
begging to grab on
before the sun goes down
love changes everything
this mess
trying your best
stumbling in the dark
coming to rescue you
falling down
now its time
to know
the bricks
were always
mine
You keep my heart close
love does not change a thing
love does not change a thing
its not a mess
just a test
you prayed to the angels
to break down my walls
forget about hurt feelings
your climbing over them
Words can never show
what your about to do
tired and bruised
you come and rescue me.
~AlmightyHeidi
9/30/2011
Look At The Stars
9/15/2011
Lust
Definition:
"Pleasure, delight, wish, intense desire, intense longing, craving, enthusiasm, eagerness."
When I was younger, I was taught, that Lust was bad. Why..because the bible told me so. God himself says that is wrong.."Walk by the spirit and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh"
It was almost like to be happy with what you were given..don't complain or your just ungrateful...so..I always tried real hard to be happy with where I was at.
Well who wants to not be gratified?
Well…
My spirit…
My spirit…
not the god of my childhood
says…
You are not bad because you want more
Wishing is magic
And magic is OK
And magic is OK
Especially when it comes true.
Hoping, craving, wanting better for yourself and your family
is part of being human.
When you stop hoping, craving, wanting better,
Your spirit dies
Your spirit dies
So go ahead
Make a wish
Hope for a better future
Delight in today
Desire more, crave more,
and always long…
for something
anything
Know when the things that you hope for come true
It is what the real god wanted for you all along.
Almighty Heidi
8/11/2011
Vision
Putting on foot in front of the other
the next step
in the timeline of my life
Mind blurring with the past
full of misdirection
The universe pushing me forth
against my will
like the birth of a child
screaming when she gets her first breath of air
in fear of the unknown
Forced to put one foot in front of the other
pitch black
seeing nothing
not knowing
up or down
left of right
my soul
telling me to follow my heart.
~Almighty Heidi
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