Beauty

I find it funny, that I am in such a dark ugly situation, my whole being craves for beauty. I think it is the Ying yang thing of the universe. There has been alot of darkness in words, emotions, and home is no longer that..a place of comfort. So I find myself trying to make comfort of it for awhile longer...with..beauty.

Yesterday and today I listened to my ZEN music which consists of acoustical guitar, or Piano, I have a thing for the Chello...the chello is always so melodramtic, but it has feeling. Music can touch the inner Heidi without uttering a word...

Then my second biggest beauty "weakness" is photograpy (Above is a pic my brother took in Japan a few days ago) and certain art, I do love the messy abstract...it touches the soul and makes emotion in my heart also without uttering a word....

Maybe we need to be a world without words...it might be a prettier place.

Finally..there is my favorite...food porn...I could not let the blog be too serious now could I..

My buddy makes the best food in the world. I scared him half to death the other day looking at a website, the way he jumped out of his chair you would think he was looking at porn..but no..it was a breast though...of a chicken..dripping in some sort of tasty..delicious sauce. Food has it's own beauty...and I think I might have had a mouth orgasim over chicken marsalla once...actually..yes I did..MMMMMM ooohh this is soooo gooood.

We've all done it..don't be ashamed :)

So now we joke, and trade recipies, and I will set up a site for yet another creative outlet ..cooking...and will be called just that..FOOD PORN. love it..i just love it.

(No Maquade I will not be stirring up a batch of marsalla in just an apron)

Untill then...

The Almighty Heidi's search for beauty in darkness goes on...