P!nk - F**kin' Perfect

This says it all...great video :)

Almighty Heidi


It's been a long time

My soul aches to write, because so much has happened, but there is no time. And there are no real words yet. I guess I tend to clam up..stop talking about it..but it is all brewing on the inside..a quiet storm ...and Im starting to hear the rumbles.

I had to end a relationship.
My 19 year old daughter is moving to the Midwest, hoping she can get some better medical care being with her grandmother, since I cannot provide it.

I now have a full time bartending shift that will pay the bills but the hours keep me away from my sons at odd hours.

On top of personal drama..some of the hardest changes, decisions I have ever made as an adult, and getting the flu that wont go away.

Did I mention I'm also moving on my birthday?

Sooner or later things will settle.
Then I will be back
There is alot to write..

~Almighty Heidi



Courage: mental or moral strength to venture, persevere, and withstand danger, fear, or difficulty

A Lion is always connected to Courage…

My post 1/4/2010..is about that..

I have faced the lion now…it is beautiful..my own truth..but I did not know it till now..but my soul knew…and it is holy ground..I am the Lion...

Facing my own self...having the courage...

Here is the post:


What an uber cool way to bring in 2010.
New Years eve night I had the most vivid beautiful dream.

I was in Colorado, visiting my grandmother, then I decide to travel to this familiar place. I had seen it in many dreams before over the years. It was mountain that was flat at the top. I would hike there, then rest.

This time the dream continued on.
I was winding through the mountain roads.

The road I was on was actually cut through the mountain so on my left and right were towers of beautiful rock. It was spring, and life was..just..everywhere.

To my right were these huge white flowers the size of magnolia blossoms..tons of them winding up and down. I stopped and drank from the stream and the water was cool and so pure.

Then I was inside the mountian and there were etchings all allong the wall.
Ancient carvings..beautiful art.
Then I remember standing in front of the most magnificant one.
The etching was over 5 feet tall. It was of just a lions head, mane flowing.
The expression was relaxed, but confident, it's eyes were intuitive and peaceful.

I reached across and touched the stone, I almost did not want to..it was ..like ..holy ground...

I let my hands glide over the creature, the beautiful Lion...

Then I woke up in 2010.