7/13/2007

"Don't look where you fell, but where you slipped"

Another good quote. just had to say it. I am not basing the blog on it though. However I do want to speak on yesterdays.
About an hour afterwards I got a call from my sons doctor. He went in for a physical for school, and we got some routine bloodwork done. I did notice after the fact that one of the blood tests was wrong, instead of checking UA (for urinalysis) which is common in a physical, the doc accidently checked the box below for uric acid.

I was too late for me to get the script changed as my mom was taking the kids the next morning.

The Uric acid came back elevated.

Now unless my 14 year old is a raging alcoholic or has gout, this level should not be increased. Gout is NOT common in children or teenagers, but in males 40-50 years of age. Nathan, is not an alcoholic...that I know of....I laughed, but only for a second.

This abnomal level could be anything from Juvinile RA (Rhematiod Arthritis) to cancer.

There are time like this when I wish I was never a nurse, and completly ignorant of any of this. I am going to get him re-tested, with about 50 dozen other tests next week.

Where did my pineapple go?

Did my pineapple turn out to be that the wrong set of tests were ordered, to avoid future health issues, or worsening of issues already rearing it's ugly head? Bittersweet?

This is the part of the un-controlable life set of circumstances. The inside is screaming to panic, while my mind says, just wait and re-do the test, and go from there. But the moms heart keeps saying...panic panic panic.

Life can sure change on a drop of a dime can't it?

The Almighty Heidi...who can't control the unseen, and hates it.

7/12/2007

To reach for something greater, you must first let go of what is in your hand

I like the quote above. All of us humans are such self limitating, by what we precive ourselves to be. I rememeber when I had my daughter I was 18, and pretty poor. Por becomes a way of life, then a lifestyle. It was ok not to have cable or a phone, enough gas to visit my parents, to do the laundry in the sink and hang it on the clothesline to dry. It was alright to eat mac n cheese all the time. This is all I saw my life being.

I look back and I could have been stuck there. Circumstances pulled me out...and up.

Then circumstance, fate, whatever it is, can also be bittersweet. I love fresh pineapple. I like it chilled ice cold, and when I bite into it the juice explodes, and the pineapple itself tastes sweeter than anything. Then there are other times where it is sour, and it makes me pucker, but i eat it anyways.

I would rather have the sweet circumstance, the sweet fate of life. Free will yes....we have it...do we have free will in circumstance...if it concerns another person, like them having a heart attack no..our actions during that time.....yes...our emotions...maybe. Destiny..I guess so...Did I make this path by free will, or did circumstance take over, or is the man upstairs in charge??


Thats as deep as the Almighty Heidi Gets for today. What will tommorrow bring??