9/04/2009

Enough





Im ready to get outta my funk.


I was really sick this past couple weeks. Got a real bad infection in my hand which turned out to be MRSA, and Im really..really…really run down. I want to sleep..alot, and I have fevers every day.


Making it through. ..


Through my daughters surgery, the move, my burn, MRSA, my dads break-in, finances, pay cuts, my own emotional trauma with some very very close people.


But tonight…I’m going to celebrate…I will drink lot’s of coffee to be awake, and eat great food with good friends…and eat chocolate cause I can, and just not worry about my waist for one damn day…and im gonna buy something new to wear..cause I want to.



My soul has been pressed beyond limits, but look at me..im here,
I’ve been broken again and again yes, but here I am standing.

I win..do you hear me universe..???


I WIN. I CHOOSE TO CELEBRATE IT ALL REGARDLESS.


..and if it keeps raining at my house and in my life

Screw it,

Im throwing down the umbrella


BRING IT ON.


*Stomping my foot*



SO THERE.


Almighty Heidi

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

you win
yes!

Michael Horvath said...

Good to hear you're taking charge! You did get a couple really great poems out of your funk though-lol. I know, I usually write my best songs when I'm "in a mood".

MaQuade said...

I so love you for this right now :)

Sierra Wolf said...

You've been through so much lately, you deserve to be happy - sometimes, you just have to reach out and take what you are due. Good for you !

Enjoy !

terri st. cloud said...

stampin' my foot with you!!!
let's float the umbrella down
the stream and watch it swirl away.....

Chuck Dilmore said...

i love
that you know
that you deserve more, better...

picture what you need.
feeeel it coming to you!
believe that it's yours, and it's yours.


you are pure, positive energy...
and we can see it!
Chuck