10/19/2010

Gravity and Reality


I wish I knew you


many years ago


I wish I were comfortable


In my own skin


had the guts to face my own self

in the mirror


Who you were


Who you were to become


Your likes
your dislikes


You had to find them on your own


Life is the forever school


Of my soul

never ending


I like purple


And Lilly's and lilacs

The smell of vanilla


Writing secrets

not
keeping them


Kisses on my neck


Hot baths


Glasses of wine


Silence


Peace and warmth


There is never enough


Even in happiness


There is never enough


maybe it is all the illusion
and my soul screams


"I dare you..to be you"


always wanting more ..


feeling like I'm in between two worlds

going 35 in a 65

my own thoughts haunting me
as I sleep


Is it another lesson


Maybe it is just the responsibility

to carry the world on the shoulders

and it is just the "right thing to do"



to be happy where I am



am I settling into comfort


into what is expected


or keep wanting


will I ever be fulfilled


who are you?


or..
who are you yet to become


I wish..


I knew you.



~Almighty Heidi

5 comments:

James Garcia Jr said...

I like it. I read it twice, but it feels like something that I would want to read in the morning, in the afternoon and then one last time at night so that the day could help shape my reaction to the words. It would be interesting to see how they might change over time.
Very cool.
-James

Shadow said...

how beautiful. i wish too. but some things we just can't do for another...

Robin said...

Heidi,
I’m loving this poem. So many aspects to it. Appearing so straight forward and uncomplicated yet so multifaceted and deep. Just like you.

Robin

AlmightyHeidi said...

Thanks James, Shadow, And Robin..James to me this seems incomplete, and I dont have the wrords or thoughts for it yet, they are still stirring around, so I think you are feeling the same thing. Sometimes you gotta write down the feelings and the story does change.
Robin, you have seen the two worlds then..outside simple, straight forward, internal always wondering, moving, pressing through, wanting more.

Greenfingers said...

in a word...'wow!'