Gravity and Reality

I wish I knew you

many years ago

I wish I were comfortable

In my own skin

had the guts to face my own self

in the mirror

Who you were

Who you were to become

Your likes
your dislikes

You had to find them on your own

Life is the forever school

Of my soul

never ending

I like purple

And Lilly's and lilacs

The smell of vanilla

Writing secrets

keeping them

Kisses on my neck

Hot baths

Glasses of wine


Peace and warmth

There is never enough

Even in happiness

There is never enough

maybe it is all the illusion
and my soul screams

"I dare you..to be you"

always wanting more ..

feeling like I'm in between two worlds

going 35 in a 65

my own thoughts haunting me
as I sleep

Is it another lesson

Maybe it is just the responsibility

to carry the world on the shoulders

and it is just the "right thing to do"

to be happy where I am

am I settling into comfort

into what is expected

or keep wanting

will I ever be fulfilled

who are you?

who are you yet to become

I wish..

I knew you.

~Almighty Heidi


James Garcia Jr said...

I like it. I read it twice, but it feels like something that I would want to read in the morning, in the afternoon and then one last time at night so that the day could help shape my reaction to the words. It would be interesting to see how they might change over time.
Very cool.

Shadow said...

how beautiful. i wish too. but some things we just can't do for another...

Robin said...

I’m loving this poem. So many aspects to it. Appearing so straight forward and uncomplicated yet so multifaceted and deep. Just like you.


AlmightyHeidi said...

Thanks James, Shadow, And Robin..James to me this seems incomplete, and I dont have the wrords or thoughts for it yet, they are still stirring around, so I think you are feeling the same thing. Sometimes you gotta write down the feelings and the story does change.
Robin, you have seen the two worlds then..outside simple, straight forward, internal always wondering, moving, pressing through, wanting more.

Greenfingers said...

in a word...'wow!'