I wish I knew you
many years ago
I wish I were comfortable
In my own skin
had the guts to face my own self
in the mirror
Who you were
Who you were to become
Your likes
your dislikes
You had to find them on your own
Life is the forever school
Of my soul
never ending
I like purple
And Lilly's and lilacs
The smell of vanilla
Writing secrets
not
keeping them
Kisses on my neck
Hot baths
Glasses of wine
Silence
Peace and warmth
There is never enough
Even in happiness
There is never enough
maybe it is all the illusion
and my soul screams
"I dare you..to be you"
always wanting more ..
feeling like I'm in between two worlds
going 35 in a 65
my own thoughts haunting me
as I sleep
Is it another lesson
Maybe it is just the responsibility
to carry the world on the shoulders
and it is just the "right thing to do"
to be happy where I am
am I settling into comfort
into what is expected
or keep wanting
will I ever be fulfilled
who are you?
or..
who are you yet to become
who are you yet to become
I wish..
I knew you.
~Almighty Heidi
5 comments:
I like it. I read it twice, but it feels like something that I would want to read in the morning, in the afternoon and then one last time at night so that the day could help shape my reaction to the words. It would be interesting to see how they might change over time.
Very cool.
-James
how beautiful. i wish too. but some things we just can't do for another...
Heidi,
I’m loving this poem. So many aspects to it. Appearing so straight forward and uncomplicated yet so multifaceted and deep. Just like you.
Robin
Thanks James, Shadow, And Robin..James to me this seems incomplete, and I dont have the wrords or thoughts for it yet, they are still stirring around, so I think you are feeling the same thing. Sometimes you gotta write down the feelings and the story does change.
Robin, you have seen the two worlds then..outside simple, straight forward, internal always wondering, moving, pressing through, wanting more.
in a word...'wow!'
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