The last few days have been absolute pure relaxation..and I have slept, which is huge!! The kids have been with grandparents or parents, so there has been no responsibility, which has been nice. I have been thinking about my New Years resolutions..have not made a list yet...but have thought about a few things.
There are so many things coming at me, expected and unexpected, and my own emotions have done nothing but suprise me. A bunch of Alien emotions and actions that I am confused by. I thought I had me all figured out. Damn....
On another note....this is actually kind of funny..and sad, but heck I will share. About 4 months ago I asked B why..welll..why we didn't Bow chickie wow wow anymore...ha! And his response was that I had gained weight and it just was not the same.
To all you guys out there..if your signifigant other has 3 back surgeries, and can no longer run the 5k,,you might wanna cut her a little slack...not to mention...did I say THREE surgeries, about 10 epidurals full of f'ing steroids.....
1. I am NOT fat...however this crushed any self esteem I had left, and....well the final straw to any relationship that we had left. Hahahah i am leaving you..you selfish son of a bitch.
2. Fuck you.
I think that about says it, so for christmas he gives me a gym membership......My boss and close friend wanted to punch him in the nose.
Well, I am looking forward to going to the gym, I am sooo sick of the treadmill downstairs...but please refer back to #1 and#2.
The craziest emotion of all..is the more I dont want love in my life, the more i want it. Grrrrr.
Stupid humanity....stupid emotions. Damn.
That is it for now....