10/01/2009

My Glass




So now it is real. I jumped in, and now I have to follow through. I was accepted into the college I wanted got the acceptance letter a few days ago… and grant coming my way.

I have applied for a few scholarships and the silliest thing is..I have to write a 500 word essay on why I want and need this scholarship, and go into the field of nursing…and I go blank. Me..the writer…blank…I got zip.

Parts of me are in complete denial. I don’t want to feel the burn of 16 hour days again. I did it before, full time work and school and the exhaustion was intense. I had a friend ask me..can you do it. My reply..I HAVE to try.

Why do I have to try Heidi..what is it that motivates you to keep going, feeling like your glass is always half full, and you are always thirsty.

What is that I want more feeling..i need more feeling..i cant settle feeling…

Blank.

Heidi

11 comments:

Marsha said...

Best of luck. I have no doubt you can do this.

foam said...

but ... you CAN do it ....

Rolf said...

You can do what you want.

Di-Git said...

Do the footwork and keep it simple...
You can do it

terri said...

awesome.
i haven't a doubt in the world
you'll pull this off.
and i've got a silly grin on my face cause i'm all tickled for you.
and when you're done.....you're gonna be one heck of a nurse.

Shadow said...

aaaah, congratulations! and as time passes, you'll see you'll manage. we somehow always do, don't we... good luck and lotsa smiles!!!

MilesPerHour said...

Having read your post for the time that I have, well I know that whether or not you get encouragement from others this is something you will do. You have it in you.

Gin said...

I'm sure it has to be a little scary, but what a wonderful opportunity! You will do great!

Chuck Dilmore said...

Heidi~
you are so gonna ace your dream...
just keep leanin' into it!

everyone here knows
that you've got the stuff!

peace&love~
Chuck

MaQuade said...

"Why do you have to try Heidi?"

Because.



Need something a little more tangible? You've always wanted to do this and have been held back by circumstances. No you're being supported by circumstances and the time that had been drawing nigh is now here. Those circumstances and their stability and support aren't going to change. The door is wide open and the path is clear and unobstructed- and it's calling out to you. You obviously hear the call =0) This is only a little of why you have to try. As for yourself, we both know you will never be able to live with the unknown of not exploring that path.

L-
-J
(Lean back... I've got you)

Greenfingers said...

Do it, try it..if it doesn't work..except it as another one of life wrong choices. Otherwise you may have to live with the constant thought of 'what if' every night when you hit your pillow Heidi.