12/30/2009

2009

The things I have learned in the past year

that in the darkest dark
the stars shine the brightest

That it is ok to let go of toxic relationships
it is nessasary, not greedy, to fill life wth the good things

Ive learned that in order to let the goodness in
I have to take the bricks away from the self made wall of protection
and it's ok to be vulnerable sometimes
because hiding behind the walls
does not allow for healthy relationships
that my innermost desires

I learned that I feel everything from others
pain, sadness, loss deep down
Ive learned that empathy is a gift
but not to lose myself along the way
to learn to observe sometimes
instead of absorbing it all

Ive learned that life does not stand still
just because you hurt to your very core
I must get up in the morning
and breathe, and take the covers from over my head down.

Ive learned there will always be loss pain, sadness, darkness
on our jouneys

Sometimes you gotta scrape your soul off the floor
and move on

and maybe it is designed like this
so we dont stay in the darkness for too long

because by moving on
this is how I grow as human

and then
I can see the stars




Almighty Heidi

8 comments:

Chuck Dilmore said...

Mmm... yes!
stars are wonderful!
and you bring the warmest smile
when you tell us you are beneath them!

meeting you
was a great part
of my 2009... thank you, Heidi!

your 2010 is gonna be
a brand-new ride... and
you are so awesome in that front seat!

go where you wanna go.
you've got the stuff, Hon!
peaceandlove~ Chuck

Shadow said...

wow, you've leared some valuable lesson. and thank you for passing the wisdom on to us... happy new year!!!

X. Dell said...

Can't disagree with anything you say, here. I hope 2010 brings a maximum amount of new insights, and a minimal degree of pain.

Tom Bailey said...

Moving on when you hit hard places in life is a great philosophy to have.

"Ive learned that life does not stand still just because you hurt to your very core"

I agree with that completely - but doing in the face of that is one of the greatest challenges in life.

Dani Sutliff said...

"That it is ok to let go of toxic relationships
it is nessasary, not greedy, to fill life wth the good things"

Amen!!

Thank you for the swesome blog - I loved each line.

Yet said...

I sounds like you learned alot in just one short year.

Frank Black said...

Happy New Year!

AlmightyHeidi said...

Chuck..happy part of my 2009 too. Shadow..thank you for alwasy commenting. Tom scraping myself up when I dont want to...it's so difficult sometimes.