Ok, here it is...resolutions 2009. I have decided that this year sucked big giant gopher balls. So why put undue pressure on myself on things that I the Almighy Heidi cannot control.
Here are the things that I know I am capable of doing..and will continue this year.
1. I will continue my collection of forgotten about 1/2 drunk coffee mugs in my office, and gross myself out when I see an array of green fuzzy mold growth.
2. Obsessive pen chewing..can't stop, therfore I wont.
3. Write out grocery lists...and leave them at home.
4. Get pretty lit up every other Friday when the kids go to their dad's. This is a must to keep my sanity..*Yay*
5. Umm drunk dial..text..or facebook...Refer to #4.
6. Possibly use my gym membership.
7. Leave Bruce. He's a prick...thus #8.
8. Move when my lease is up. (I HATE moving)
9. Helloooo shoe shopping. I am a female ya know.
10. Continue with my chap stick additicion ritual.
12/31/2008
12/27/2008
Figuring out the aliens in my head...
The last few days have been absolute pure relaxation..and I have slept, which is huge!! The kids have been with grandparents or parents, so there has been no responsibility, which has been nice. I have been thinking about my New Years resolutions..have not made a list yet...but have thought about a few things.
There are so many things coming at me, expected and unexpected, and my own emotions have done nothing but suprise me. A bunch of Alien emotions and actions that I am confused by. I thought I had me all figured out. Damn....
On another note....this is actually kind of funny..and sad, but heck I will share. About 4 months ago I asked B why..welll..why we didn't Bow chickie wow wow anymore...ha! And his response was that I had gained weight and it just was not the same.
To all you guys out there..if your signifigant other has 3 back surgeries, and can no longer run the 5k,,you might wanna cut her a little slack...not to mention...did I say THREE surgeries, about 10 epidurals full of f'ing steroids.....
1. I am NOT fat...however this crushed any self esteem I had left, and....well the final straw to any relationship that we had left. Hahahah i am leaving you..you selfish son of a bitch.
2. Fuck you.
I think that about says it, so for christmas he gives me a gym membership......My boss and close friend wanted to punch him in the nose.
Well, I am looking forward to going to the gym, I am sooo sick of the treadmill downstairs...but please refer back to #1 and#2.
The craziest emotion of all..is the more I dont want love in my life, the more i want it. Grrrrr.
Stupid humanity....stupid emotions. Damn.
That is it for now....
Latte
Heidi
There are so many things coming at me, expected and unexpected, and my own emotions have done nothing but suprise me. A bunch of Alien emotions and actions that I am confused by. I thought I had me all figured out. Damn....
On another note....this is actually kind of funny..and sad, but heck I will share. About 4 months ago I asked B why..welll..why we didn't Bow chickie wow wow anymore...ha! And his response was that I had gained weight and it just was not the same.
To all you guys out there..if your signifigant other has 3 back surgeries, and can no longer run the 5k,,you might wanna cut her a little slack...not to mention...did I say THREE surgeries, about 10 epidurals full of f'ing steroids.....
1. I am NOT fat...however this crushed any self esteem I had left, and....well the final straw to any relationship that we had left. Hahahah i am leaving you..you selfish son of a bitch.
2. Fuck you.
I think that about says it, so for christmas he gives me a gym membership......My boss and close friend wanted to punch him in the nose.
Well, I am looking forward to going to the gym, I am sooo sick of the treadmill downstairs...but please refer back to #1 and#2.
The craziest emotion of all..is the more I dont want love in my life, the more i want it. Grrrrr.
Stupid humanity....stupid emotions. Damn.
That is it for now....
Latte
Heidi
12/26/2008
Getting a bit..Mushy??
Ok..I read this..and wanted to save it..so what a better place to save it here..in my very own spot on the net.
"How come....when I'm with you Ifeel like I am holding my breath, and takeing a deep breath all at the same time...and when I close my eyes, I see you..."
"Because I am breathing you into my soul and breathing myself into yours....and because I'm holding you in my thoughts so firmly that you can see me in your own."
Ok..some may just have a moment of throwing up in their mouth...but..it's sooo
ROMANTIC
ohhhhhhhh the mush side of Almighty comes out...
This is the stuff Lifetime networks made of:) Ha!
Hope you all had a great Christmas~~
"How come....when I'm with you Ifeel like I am holding my breath, and takeing a deep breath all at the same time...and when I close my eyes, I see you..."
"Because I am breathing you into my soul and breathing myself into yours....and because I'm holding you in my thoughts so firmly that you can see me in your own."
Ok..some may just have a moment of throwing up in their mouth...but..it's sooo
ROMANTIC
ohhhhhhhh the mush side of Almighty comes out...
This is the stuff Lifetime networks made of:) Ha!
Hope you all had a great Christmas~~
12/24/2008
Ho Ho Ho
http://www.noradsanta.org/en/track3d.html
Ok…we could not track Santa by Google earth when we were little..how cool is that!!!
When I was a little girl, my grandparents made a surprise visit to us in North Carolina from New York. My parents were dirt poor, had no oil in the funrnace, no food..no Christmas tree. Grandma and grandpa walked in the house, looked around, and walked back out. They came back with tons of food, presents, filled the oil tank so our house became warm... and in the back of the car was a beautiful tree..and all the ornaments to hang.
My grandmother just would not have it any other way...as I grew up I came to appreciate her giving spirit, and want to model myself after that.
That night knowing we had presents it was soo hard to sleep, and the excitement was beyond butterflies in the stomach. Just about that time, my grandfather, and dad went outside, got and the roof..jingled some bells, stomped around and started yelling..HOHOHO..
OH my god it’s santa..please let me go to sleep, please let me go to sleep..i really really really really really really want my presents I have been a good girl. I was truly stressing out...I heard he didnt come to those who were not asleep...
Here are to those Christmas miracles I will never forget growing up, and the things that made it so special…and here’s to my grandfather..the reindeer stomper, who is celebrating his 90th birthday ..on Christmas day…and he was born in Bethlehem (seriously)…Pennsylvania that is.
Heidi HO HO HO
Ok…we could not track Santa by Google earth when we were little..how cool is that!!!
When I was a little girl, my grandparents made a surprise visit to us in North Carolina from New York. My parents were dirt poor, had no oil in the funrnace, no food..no Christmas tree. Grandma and grandpa walked in the house, looked around, and walked back out. They came back with tons of food, presents, filled the oil tank so our house became warm... and in the back of the car was a beautiful tree..and all the ornaments to hang.
My grandmother just would not have it any other way...as I grew up I came to appreciate her giving spirit, and want to model myself after that.
That night knowing we had presents it was soo hard to sleep, and the excitement was beyond butterflies in the stomach. Just about that time, my grandfather, and dad went outside, got and the roof..jingled some bells, stomped around and started yelling..HOHOHO..
OH my god it’s santa..please let me go to sleep, please let me go to sleep..i really really really really really really want my presents I have been a good girl. I was truly stressing out...I heard he didnt come to those who were not asleep...
Here are to those Christmas miracles I will never forget growing up, and the things that made it so special…and here’s to my grandfather..the reindeer stomper, who is celebrating his 90th birthday ..on Christmas day…and he was born in Bethlehem (seriously)…Pennsylvania that is.
Heidi HO HO HO
12/23/2008
Twisted
The kids are only on day one from being off from school and already are driving each other CRAZY. Nathan had entirely too much sugar in his system or something, but he was so hyper. He and his brother started wrestling each other on the floor. This is a guy bonding ritual I just do not understand. Finally there was some smack talk that went between them.
Nate “You’re a wuss”
Mike” You’re a retard”
Nate” You smell like ass” right about this time I was jumping up telling them to knock it off and stop cursing, which I can’t stand…but then Michael had to put one more in there
“Your ADOPTED and NOBODY LOVES YOU!”
What is up with my kids, first Kayla now Michael.
However, that did make Nathan laugh and just as the wrestling was going to develop in a fight they were both on the floor laughing.
I had to put in my two sense..”Out of three million sperm you guys are the ones who made it”
Then they went eww and just kept rolling on the floor laughing…me along with them.
Yeah..we are not normal..yeah we have a sick sense of humor…but…that’s amore’ in my family.
Blessings!
Almighty Heidi
Nate “You’re a wuss”
Mike” You’re a retard”
Nate” You smell like ass” right about this time I was jumping up telling them to knock it off and stop cursing, which I can’t stand…but then Michael had to put one more in there
“Your ADOPTED and NOBODY LOVES YOU!”
What is up with my kids, first Kayla now Michael.
However, that did make Nathan laugh and just as the wrestling was going to develop in a fight they were both on the floor laughing.
I had to put in my two sense..”Out of three million sperm you guys are the ones who made it”
Then they went eww and just kept rolling on the floor laughing…me along with them.
Yeah..we are not normal..yeah we have a sick sense of humor…but…that’s amore’ in my family.
Blessings!
Almighty Heidi
12/22/2008
The Eldest Alien Child
Sundays the house is filled with the smell of whatever is cooking on the slow cooker. We had BBQ pulled pork and cornbread. I made some fresh green beans and alfredo noodles. The house smelled so yummy all day, and my stomach was growling like a bear. I had done so much cleaning and shopping all day long, I was looking forward to a peaceful dinner and a glass of wine…and a hot bubble bath. Turned out I did not have any wine, and was too tired to go to the store…so settled for some hot coffee instead...not the same, but still good out on the porch on a BEAUTIFUL evening.
Sundays I tend to think a little too much about life, and what’s going on with me, and although sometimes that can be good, it is a rough road sometimes take a hard honest look at everything.
I was just starting to feel like total crap about myself then….
My daughter said "I figured something out today”
“What” I asked her
“You ARE my REAL mom.” She said very seriously, then left the room.
Huh?
It was so out of the blue, and utterly silly that it had me rolling..and tears started to come out of my eyes. I do need to ask her later now that I think of it where she thinks that she might have come from…I know I used to pretend I was adopted, but I did not like my mom. Ha!
Ok Kayla…have another pain pill.
My kids are goofy, and just in the midst of feeling bad about myself, or working through my issues, these silly little things just make me smile…and bring me back to sanity...the sanity of living just for today..taking todays gifts, and loving the simple joy.
Almighty Heidi
Sundays I tend to think a little too much about life, and what’s going on with me, and although sometimes that can be good, it is a rough road sometimes take a hard honest look at everything.
I was just starting to feel like total crap about myself then….
My daughter said "I figured something out today”
“What” I asked her
“You ARE my REAL mom.” She said very seriously, then left the room.
Huh?
It was so out of the blue, and utterly silly that it had me rolling..and tears started to come out of my eyes. I do need to ask her later now that I think of it where she thinks that she might have come from…I know I used to pretend I was adopted, but I did not like my mom. Ha!
Ok Kayla…have another pain pill.
My kids are goofy, and just in the midst of feeling bad about myself, or working through my issues, these silly little things just make me smile…and bring me back to sanity...the sanity of living just for today..taking todays gifts, and loving the simple joy.
Almighty Heidi
12/20/2008
Got Beer?
I despise shopping in walmart. I would rather go to Target, but my lack of funds this year took me to this dreaded pit where all the peophiles and overbearing mothers live. Seriously..have you ever looked around at a walmart..people there scare me.
So I finally got my Christmas tree...it is beautiful. I am standing in line with it, and there is a man in the next isle..looking at me and my basket of Christmas, and he said with a sad tone.."Yeah..we just got our tree too" I was not depressed about it, I was actually feelin kinda cheerful. He looked pitiful, the economy has him by the balls to. But as I was starting to feel sorry for him, I notice he is wearing a pair of battery operated reindeer antlers that are swaying back and forth on his head, and then his shirt. The shirt was a dirty white, with his big ol gut sticking out, and written in black was "GOT BEER?"
I could not help but chuckle to myself.
Then as I am standing in line at the checkout, with a dozen people behing me, the walmart lady says, "Would you like to apply for a Walmart Credit Card" I politly said no and she asked again, this time telling me I could save 20 off my purchase. I thought for a second..hmm twenty dollars. The guy behind me must have felt my thought, because him and the dozen others behind me were giving me the "eye". which meant, DONT YOU DARE FILL OUT THE CREDIT FORM AND MAKE US WAIT ANOTHER 30 MINUTES IN LINE.
So I told the lady again "No thank you"
Howver the Evil Almighty Heidi wanted to say es..just to see the reaction of the people behind me.
Woo hhahahahhaa.
Heidi
So I finally got my Christmas tree...it is beautiful. I am standing in line with it, and there is a man in the next isle..looking at me and my basket of Christmas, and he said with a sad tone.."Yeah..we just got our tree too" I was not depressed about it, I was actually feelin kinda cheerful. He looked pitiful, the economy has him by the balls to. But as I was starting to feel sorry for him, I notice he is wearing a pair of battery operated reindeer antlers that are swaying back and forth on his head, and then his shirt. The shirt was a dirty white, with his big ol gut sticking out, and written in black was "GOT BEER?"
I could not help but chuckle to myself.
Then as I am standing in line at the checkout, with a dozen people behing me, the walmart lady says, "Would you like to apply for a Walmart Credit Card" I politly said no and she asked again, this time telling me I could save 20 off my purchase. I thought for a second..hmm twenty dollars. The guy behind me must have felt my thought, because him and the dozen others behind me were giving me the "eye". which meant, DONT YOU DARE FILL OUT THE CREDIT FORM AND MAKE US WAIT ANOTHER 30 MINUTES IN LINE.
So I told the lady again "No thank you"
Howver the Evil Almighty Heidi wanted to say es..just to see the reaction of the people behind me.
Woo hhahahahhaa.
Heidi
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